I'm not really having a whole lot of complete thoughts right now. But there is one thing that comes to mind in particular if I try to think for ten seconds. Most people don't have close to perfect relationships and the ones that do seem like life must be very boring for them. Sure it's true everyone has their "ideal." That fictional character that will never happen because: A). Prince Charming is a cartoon he isn't fucking real. B). You are out of your league so stop trying to mess up the order of the jungle. So when you sit and realize none of that shit is ever going to happen you realize well that fucking sucks.
Never fear my friends because reality will bring you someone, but it sure as hell isn't going to be a fairytale. That's right Disney is a cooperation founded in lies and making us feel bad about ourselves. Now back to the point of my story. The person you fall in love with and will really get to you is that one that you just want to choke out sometimes. It's the one that you would let you molest you in the chimp room at the zoo because there is no one else around. Plus lets face it anything that involves a monkey will get you back to your animal roots and desires. Don't judge it till you experience it.
The thing is we are selfish and we always want more then what we have. We always want life to be a little bit better even if we understand life is typically screwed up in one way or another. What a waste of time and sick days. Sometimes it has to be realized that our paths are not supposed to be that fancy. The freaks of the world deserve each other. If they didn't then who would breed comedians and reality stars? Eventually we all get cellulite and our pant sizes grow. Shit happens, the past has to be set free, and you just have to live it out.
Once you realize all of this and can be the penguin who works hard all day gathering rocks; not the one who steals them and wins the nest contest by cheating. Life gets so much easier and stress disappears. You really stop giving a fuck about what everyone else thinks. All you do is laugh and pee your pants. If you don't want to brush your teeth and lay in bed for two days it's totally cool because you have this dorky partner in crime. Yes that's what life's about being yourself with someone who can be themselves with you and together the two become one big explosion misunderstood and so happy.
